can't sleep

I just watched a really disturbing SVU and its keeping me from sleeping. A woman accuses her ex husband of raping her. When he gets out on bail he lights her on fire with gasoline. The detectives visit her in the hospital and she says she got him good but still says he raped her. She ends up suffering horribly and dying of her injuries. It turns out that she made up the rape just to get back at him for the divorce. Elliot ends up agreeing with his wife's request for a divorce because he says "I don't want her to ever regret me like that."
I can't get that out of my head. Both the screaming, burnt woman and elliot's line. I don't want to be a regret. I know I've made mistakes, but I don't want to be regretted. I don't regret the time i spent with char. I hope she doesn't regret the time she spent with me.