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I'm irritated. I don't like loud people. I don't like people in my space. I don't like it when people fuck up simple jobs. At least I don't have to move next term. I wish the doctor would get back to me so I could find out about my MRI. I am sick of having to drug myself to sleep because I hurt too much. My therapist wants to put me on ambien but that kind of freaks me out and I don't want to....I wish I was ok to just sleep on my own.
I don't like it when people think they know whats best for other people.

I am sick of only having "i don't know" for an answer. I don't like not knowing or being able to explain what I want, or where I want to go, what I want to do...
I miss her a lot. I miss having her in my life. I think about her all the time. But she deserves better than "i miss you"'s followed by "i don't know"s