So I have a new resolution. I will be honest with the people around me and honest with myself about my actions, desires and motivations. This seems like its pretty straight forward but from an early age I learned that dishonesty was easier if I could keep moving but its all catching up to me now.
littlebird with broken wing doused the burning beauty and even though it tried to sing the sun back to the sky the darkness froze and hate enclosed the creature's sad advances "Goodbye littlebird. I've finally heard." You get no second chances.